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Weight Loss Tarot Journal - On Love, Forgiveness and Emotional Healing

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November 19, 2019

How can I help both my own and my father’s inner child?

for Dad  -  Gathering  |   for Me  -  Forgiveness


Since my recent realization of the ramifications of the generational emotional abuse in our family, I have felt a need to care for my inner child, who experienced that abuse. I am also feeling the same need for the inner child of my father, now passed on, who experienced that abuse from his mother. The question is, “How do I do that, especially for my father?” Nurturing these two wounded inner children has begun to feel vitally important.

Last night, it occurred to me to use my Messages from the Light Meditation Deck for some insights on how I might go about this. Although I don’t use this deck often, every time I do, I receive powerful messages. So I drew a card for what I could do for Dad’s inner child, and then one for mine. And again, powerful messages came…

for my father’s inner child  -  Gathering
I drew this card for helping Dad’s inner child. Initially, what struck me was the net of light. It reminded me of the web of light I saw when my mother was dying. I was using Reiki for her, hoping to ease the fear she was feeling about her imminent passing. It is reassuring, somehow, that I am seeing that here as well.

I next noticed the oval of light, into which the net of light seems drawn. In the shape of the vesica piscis, a symbol of creation and generation, it is an important symbol in sacred geometry and religious mysticism around the world. Within the oval of light, there is an apparent tunnel leading to a brighter light. My father has moved into that light and there is a veil between our worlds. But the netting of light suggests there is a way to connect with him energetically.

And then there are the white birds. I cannot tell if they are flying into and out of the light tunnel, but they feel to be doing both. Birds are traditionally seen as messengers of Spirit and symbols of the mind. Perhaps they are calling me to connect with what they have to say. Is Dad sending me a message from the other side? He did reach out to me shortly after he passed, but I haven’t heard from him since. Although I suspect the white birds are meant to represent doves of peace - and that would certainly be appropriate here - they also make me think of seagulls. My father was from Florida and I spent much of my life there. Seagulls are everywhere in Florida and always around the waters. My father loved being out on the water in his boat and many hours of family time were spent on that boat. Those birds are reminders. 

The LWB that comes with this deck presents only brief meanings for its images. The message for this card is very interesting;
“There is a gathering before the event, an inhalation before an exhalation. Allow the universe time to support your intention by drawing together the required elements.”

How it applies to me… I am being advised to wait on spiritual timing. It will be interesting to see what The Universe brings to aid me in helping me love, understand and forgive my father’s wounded inner child - and perhaps, thereby, to reconcile with him. Just thinking about my father in this way is illuminating. I can feel my natural mothering instincts rising to protect him.


for my own inner child  -  Forgiveness
The word jumped out at me for how to help my own inner child. It had previously come to me that forgiveness is an important element of my healing and I thought I had done that earlier in my life. But it seems some resentment still remains.

Everything about this image is green and full of sparkling light. Green is the color of the heart chakra. Most appropriate for this card. The opening of a flower has long been a symbol for the opening of the human soul to Spirit. And to love. The light streaming down onto the woman, encircling her head and pouring out her hands also swirls down toward the center of the flower in front of and within her. That light reminds me of the energy coursing through me in much the same way when I do Reiki and pendulum treatments and when I am praying before doing a Tarot reading. Is this woman me or the embodiment of the spiritual mother? Is it Mary? Kuan Yin? I have a deep affinity with Kuan Yin and about a year ago had a powerful spiritual experience with her that felt almost exactly like this image portrays, except the energy flow then was at my heart chakra. The energy in this image seems to be more powerfully placed at the levels of the 2nd and 3rd chakras. Perhaps the bird flying near the woman’s head and shoulders brings the message that forgiveness is needed for healing at these two levels. So what areas of the body and life do these chakras influence?

3rd Chakra - Solar Plexus Chakra
Body - sight, the adrenals, metabolic and digestive systems

Life - one of the most powerful chakras, has profound influences on our personal power and abilities, our personal and professional success, and having respect for self and others

Issues - personal power, self esteem, willfulness and energy

2nd Chakra - Sacral Chakra
Body - sense of taste, impacts several organs and glands, including the bladder, lymphatic system, pelvis, large intestine and female reproductive organs

Life - our desires, sexuality, reproductive function, ability to be happy and joyful, compassionate, creative and passionate

Issues - creativity, pleasure, pain, relationships and emotions

The message in the LWB about this image says;
“Some beings or situations may be closed to you. Forgive them and they will open. Some parts of your self may be closed to the flow of love, joy, vitality. Forgive them and the flow will be restored.”

How it applies to me… I can see many things in the mentioned chakra energies that have been affecting me in my life… issues with my sight (although they could also be age-related), adrenal fatigue, metabolic imbalances, fear, self-esteem, poor relationship choices. That they could all relate back to the fear and emotional abuse received as a child is eye-and-heart-opening. Learning this about myself helps to understand what must have also happened in similar ways to my father, when he was a child. How powerfully important are the understandings of forgiveness and compassion. And how heart-breakingly damaging are the reaches of unkindness in family dynamics.


There is so much here to feel and understand and act on. In the image on the Forgiveness card, the energies descend from Spirit, move through matter, mind and emotions, and are released out into the world. Energy is also being released out of the heart of the flower.

The messages today are to allow the timing of the Universe to help me love and care for my father’s inner child and that the powers of love, understanding, forgiveness and release can heal lives and rescue wounded children. I am deeply grateful for these powerful insights and the advice that flows from them.

Comments always welcome and appreciated. 💚🌿 


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30 Day Tarot Challenge - Week Three - June 15-21, 2020 - Rohrig Tarot

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My daily Challenge cards and interpretations will be included here on my blog, posted in groups of weeks. The deck I have been using throughout this challenge is the Rohrig Tarot. Created in 1995 and beloved by many (including me),  the English-USA version has been out of print for a long time. This deck is based on the Thoth system and gives me very deep readings. The deep readings are why I love it so much and why it is such a treasure to me.  ___________________________________________________ WEEK THREE  June 15-21, 2020 ___________________________________________________
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My daily cards and interpretations will be posted in the group and here on my blog. For the blog, I will post them in groups of weeks. The deck I will be using throughout this challenge is the Rohrig Tarot. I have loved this deck since the image on the box cover jumped out at me in a bookstore back in 1997. Although I learned to read Tarot with the Rider-Waite system, this deck is based on the Thoth system and yet still gives me very deep readings. The deep readings are why I love it so much and why it is such a treasure to me.  ___________________________________________________ WEEK TWO  June 8-14, 2020 ___________________________________________________
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Can’t believe we are already into the last week of the 30 Day Tarot Challenge! Our Facebook Tarot group of the same name is so much fun. We are Tarot readers of all levels and we learn so much through our sharing of our card meanings and how they apply to our lives.
Continuing into this last week, my daily Challenge cards and interpretations will be included here on my blog and the deck used will be the Rohrig Tarot. Although I learned Tarot on the RWS system, I love this Thoth-based deck because it gives me such deep readings. Out of print for a long time now, it still remains a personal treasure. ___________________________________________________ WEEK FOUR  June 22-30, 2020 ___________________________________________________
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My question was to be shown a reflection of what today will bring. This image shows a kiln, with me the person ins…

Tarot Card of the Day - Ace of Cups on a Wedding Day - Druidcraft Tarot

December 21, 2019
I asked for a message for today and drew the Ace of Cups

DruidCraft Tarot

What a perfect card for today...  I am officiating a wedding this afternoon. 
A wedding is a time of emotional new beginnings for the newlyweds and for all those who love them.  And lucky me, I will get to share in that love and joy today. 
This card is a beautiful reflection of the deeply sincere human emotions we experience at a wedding, as we recognize ourselves in the words of hope and promise that surround the wedding couple. 
Tarot is an amazing mirror of our lives.
... Comments always welcome and appreciated. 💚🌿  


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Weight Loss Tarot Journal - Staying on the Path - Gaian Tarot - 7 of Air (Swords)

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What is a good thing for me to be aware of today?
7 of Air (Swords)
Deck used - Gaian Tarot
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What first jumped out to me was the map, with the mountains drawn in the distance. Sure enough, this hiker stands at a distance from the mountains and is already on the way. But the mountains aren’t the destination - the first lake is. Or so s/he thought when she began this journey. The first lake is where most travelers go. That is the weight loss goal. She’s not there yet but, from her current vantage point, she now has a wider view. She…

Weight Loss Tarot Journal - Planning to Begin Again - The Star Tarot - 5 of Pentacles

July 1, 2020
Will I be Successful This Time?
5 of Pentacles
Deck used - The Star Tarot
As I plan to begin my weight loss journey again very soon, I have set a daunting goal to give up the foods that have the most pull over me - sugar and flour. I know this is going to be difficult for all kinds of reasons and asked if I will be successful in my goal.
This card is disheartening. But I do notice the bottom right point of the star is pointing to a mountain. It seems to be saying that, yes, I can overcome but it will be difficult. Those white mountains even look like piles of flour and sugar. My nemises!
The person is bent forward as she moves on in her quest. Is she scared? Is she humbled by the challenge? Is she giving up before she starts? I think she is scared but determined.
She knows this is not going to be easy and she is worried about how hard she is assuming it is going to be. But there are a couple of good signs for her; the upper star points ar…

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The Lovers
Osho Zen Tarot
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The first meaning of The Lovers card is love and connection. We have an annual Family Cookie Day, where we all gather to decorate Christmas cookies. This year it turned into Family Cookie Weekend. The grandkids came over on Saturday to help me roll, cut and bake the cookies and then spend the night. Their parents came over the following morning to decorate the cookies with them. It is always fun having everyone over for this event but having the kids cut and bake the cookies was not a practical idea. Aside from the fact that it was a HUGE mess (oh my goodness!), most of the young hands are not yet skilled enough for rolling the dough. Their m…

Tarot Card of the Day - 10 of Boons (Pentacles) - Forest of Enchantment Tarot

What is a good message for today?
10 of Boons (Pentacles) reversed 
Deck used - Forest of Enchantment Tarot

Well this message is clear… the Thanksgiving holiday is over. It was wonderful spending days with family, immersed in fun, love and happiness, but all good things have their time. Now it is time to get back to work and normal daily life.

This card is totally right, though. Family is truly a huge boon and blessing in my life... and more family time over the Christmas holidays are right around the corner. 😊❤️


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Trump Impeachment Trial - The Tower - Tarot Grand Luxe

January 23, 2020
Will the Senate vote to remove Trump?
The Tower
Tarot Grand Luxe

As I do Tarot draws about the Trump impeachment trial and post some here, I preface by saying that I am not a fan of our current president. I feel he is a danger to our nation and our ideals and he has corrupted our government. Or perhaps I should say that because his own corruption is so blatant and pervasive, he is bringing the corruption in our government into the light. What I am seeing in Trump and his henchmen is heartbreaking. They are far removed from my own concept of our nation, its principles and what I believe us to be and stand for.

While watching and experiencing this pivotal point in our nation’s history, I am curious to see how the Tarot reflects that. My choice of deck is important. I really like the Tarot Grand Luxe. It is modern, bold, unequivocal and reads very well for me. It is especially powerful for readings on Trump and politics so I bought …