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Weight Loss Tarot Journal - The Craving - The Binge - The Starting Over - Oracle of the 7 Energies


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September 30, 2020

Weight Loss Tarot Journal

How I am feeling about last night’s binge.

20 - A Merry Motive


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I am definitely not feeling good about the binge. I brought it on myself. After feeling good about my progress so far (12 pounds down in 7 weeks)  and proud about keeping myself on the straight and narrow, I fell to the temptation of my favorite homemade cookies. 

The Craving and the Binge

Before I started my Bright Line Eating program (no sugar - no flour),  I had previously made and frozen a lot of cookies for my hubby. That way, I wouldn’t need to make more while I wasn’t yet strong on my eating plan. As each package has come out of the freezer for him, I resisted them all. But for some reason, I felt compelled to eat these. I didn’t have any cravings in the days following, so I thought I would get by unscathed. Last night proved me wrong. 

I didn’t realize, when I got into the car to head home from my daughter’s house, that a big, huge binge was immediately ahead. My early dinner plan had gotten changed and I was heading out onto the road way past my normal eating time. Once the sugar idea hit me while driving, it kept getting stronger and stronger. Eventually I gave in and got some candy. The old habit of eating candy in the car had raised its tempting head - and I had let it win.

There is obviously a reason sugar and flour are called “bright lines.” Bright lines in terms of NEVER. CROSS. THIS. LINE. TO. EAT. THEM. It was a week ago when I ate those cookies. They were delicious. I wanted them at the time. I enjoyed them. But it only took a week  after eating them to set me off on a binge that hit me out of the blue.

The Lesson 

This is an important lesson to learn by seeing it in action. It is an equally important realization to accept about myself and my body chemistry. I need to respect those bright lines. I need to think of them as dangerously flashing bright lines. From here on out, I will know that.

So many feelings are churning inside me. I don’t feel defeated but I do feel disappointed in myself. I asked my question today trying to pinpoint the core of those feelings. This oracle deck speaks to deep personal questions like this but I wasn’t expecting the answer to be the importance of knowing my motivations. A Merry Motive brought out this insight. The finger points to me. And I know it.

The choice to eat those cookies, while wrong, has turned out to be important and illuminating. It showed me how easily I can fool myself, how my body chemistry can no longer handle the dangerous sugar and flour combo, and how indulging that combo can lead to overpowering compulsions in a very short time. 

The Starting Over

My eating plan is a work in progress. My lessons on its path are going to be a work in progress, too. This is one of those lessons. I need to learn from it, take it to heart, and not beat myself up over it. It is important for me to get right back on the path. I did that today. I am living proof of how easily stepping off the path will get me into the weeds. Serious weeds - and briars. 

So what is my motivation going forward? Staying on my eating plan. It is the path to my weight loss, health and self-esteem. I have found security and achievement joys on this path  and they are important stepping stones for me. 

This lesson is really about priorities - fleeting and long range. Like the clothespins holding the glowing lessons in A Merry Motive,  these realizations will help me as I move along this path. When new temptations arise, will I choose the immediate gratification or the long range goals? Knowing what I know now, I hope I will choose for the long range. The glowing lesson-stars on the clothesline above should help light my way. 

Life will sure keep us humble.
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Comments always welcome and appreciated. 💚🌿 

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